One week into the new year and wow, it’s already so good! I’m already growing. So I said I would take you on the chapters of my life and with that.. welcome to chapter one!!
I don’t know about you but I am so guilty of letting fear control my life and my actions. I think I’m more afraid that I’m not equip to do something and I’ll get the feeling of being uncomfortable and I don’t like that feeling.
So, if you know me personally you might know I went through these discipleship classes at my church. Starting at The Way, Life at The Way and Purpose at The Way. It’s basically teaching you the most foundational parts of the Bible. I received so much growth taking these classes and my walk with God only got stronger.
Recently one my growth coach’s from these classes contacted me about becoming a coach myself. I was so set on taking freedom at The Way first though and she said if I felt I needed to do that then I should.
A growth coach is just someone that holds you accountable for doing homework. They go over everything with you and they’re there to support and encourage you. I think the main reason I didn’t feel equip was because what if someone were to ask me something and I’m not knowledgeable about that area yet? I would feel kinda dumb honestly and not useful.
So this past Sunday there was a meeting and I wasn’t going to go. I was about to be disobedience to God because of my own fear and insecurities. I cried and even got prayer and then a friend told me, God wouldn’t have called me if I wasn’t ready for it. She also reminded me to check my pride. I thought “ I “wasn’t equip but God is. If God says I am then I should lean not on my own understanding but his. It wasn’t about me it was about God, glorifying him.
I knew I had to be obedient and I was. I went to that meeting. Last night was the first night of the classes and I got my group of girls and honestly I couldn’t have gotten a better group. God really did give me the words to say and when to say them.
I even step further out of my comfort zone and prayed for a girl individually, usually I’ll say that I’ll pray for you at home because I feel like I’m not a prayer warrior. None of that mattered to God. He told me to do it and I listened to him and he gave me all the right words to say. He let me impact this girl and change the way she thought.
My word for 2019 was growth and it’s already coming to pass! I need to remember with growth come uncomfortableness. I’m not always going to want to do things that require change but I have to. I’m choosing to walk in obedience and boldness.
Fear is of the enemy and I won’t let it take hold of me anymore!! I have to remember, fear can stop me from going places. It can hinder my growth. My fears don’t know my strength and the they don’t know the God I know!
So… as The breakup song says
“ Fear you don’t own me, there ain’t no room in this story and I ain’t got time for you telling me what I’m not like you know me well guess what? I know who I am. I know I’m strong and I am free. I got my own identity, So fear, you will never be welcome here! “
I’m choosing to face everything and rise.
Is there anybody out there like me, needing fear to leave?
How are you overcoming it? Comment below! I would love to know and pray for you!
Until next time 💫